The True Lover of my Heart

I have had a revalation. I have (finally) discovered that if you give everything to God, he really will bless you and give you everything you need. It's been preached to me more than half my life, but I never really felt it until now. God truly is as amazing as he claims he is. He is the way, the truth, the light, and nothing less. I choose to put my all into following him, no matter what the cost because I know that he will provide me with everything I need along the way. I will do nothing unless the Lord asks it of me and if ever I feel him calling me to something, I will go without a second thought. I trust him with my life. I know that my life is not my own, but was bought with a price, and I will humbly serve the Lord my God with everything I am and everything that I do. I pray that he would shape me into the person I need to be for him.

Change

I don't know what's going on with me. It's like I'm a different person all of the sudden. I used to be able to talk to people about my life and how I was feeling and now it just seems like I don't have the words. Talking to the people closest to me doesn't fix things like it used to. It's like everything that used to be is now far away from me. It might be a good thing, but I'm really not sure right now. But I've always been afraid of change and that's one thing that's still the same. It's just hard to tell if the world is changing or if it's me. I haven't stopped praying about it, but I seem to just change more. I need answers and I'm right now I've got nothing to go on. I don't know what to do anymore.