What have I done?

I don't like feeling like burden. I try my best to be self sufficient and it seems like just my being there is a problem for people. I don't understand this at all. Now everyone is either mad at me or completely ignoring me and I'm once again alone. I need help. God, please help me to understand what to do and how to act. If this is where you want me, I can only ask for strenth to make it through. I'll follow where you lead me. Amen.

~Rachel

Peace

I think I'm finally at peace with all the things that have happened and are happening in my life. No, things don't always go the way I plan, but I know that they all work for God's plan and that's good enough for me. "We know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, those who he has called according to his purpose"~Romans 8:28 It all makes sense to me now. Mostly with the important stuff in life. One of things I thought was the cause of a lot of negative stuff in my life, turned out to be the thing that brought me to the biggest positive things. It's just like I've finally come to accept all of it and it's an amazing feeling. Praise God, because I know none of this would be this way without him.

Summer Plan

Summer is almost here, and I haven't really been planning much. I know that I'm going to read through the entire new testiment, which is great, cause then I'll have at least a chunk of the bible completely read! But now I have a new plan. I am going to take one month each of Summer to study three parts of my walk with God. Prayer, Bible Reading(see above), and Quiet Time. I haven't been spending as much time with God as I should have been this past year, and I plan to change all that this summer. I'll spend one month really focusing on one aspect and then at the next month, I'll switch to another. By the end of this summer, and with God's help, I'll be closer to him and living a better life because of it. I don't know what the final results of this summer will be, but I know it can't hurt. I'll just start where I am, and I'll follow God through the summer. Can't wait!

BYL!

~Rachel