Ups and Downs...

I have had on overly tiring week. I've gone from singing at the peak of a mountain to crying at the bottom of a pit. I'm really having to learn to put my everything in God. I can't do this all by myself, and as much as I don't like feeling hopeless, the depression is so much worse. I'd much rather stand on top of the world with him at my side than to try and do it alone.

Churches and Wildflowers...

Hello again! As you very well know, (or should very well know) Mother's Day was yesterday. First, I went to PGCC, since that's where I always go for Sunday school and I wasn't going to be able to stay for service. Then my family came and picked me up and we all went to Gregory Memorial. What a joy. Not! I mean, yes, overall, they are not a bad church. And maybe old people who can't stand any noise at all think it's just the loveliest church they've ever been to. However, I think I'll stick with the funny pastor, the giggling youth group, the chattering toddlers, and the singing congregation that I have come to know and love. In fact, if I have any choice at all in the matter, I am never leaving that church. I want to stay there for the rest of my life and raise my children in that church. But that's kind of skipping off the subject.

Anyway, after that, my family(along with my Grandma) went to Tripps. This is a really nice restaurant that served fresh bread with some kind of olive oil dip and poppy seed muffins with honey butter...haha...and that was just the appetizer. I won't go into detail on the whole meal, though. When we finished our meal, we drove home. I'm guessing we took my Grandma back to her house and then went home, but I wouldn't know, because I was in a semi-coma in the back seat until we got back home. Then I went in my room and fell asleep some more. Haha. When I woke up, it was cool outside and just right for going for a long walk. So I walked through my neighborhood, singing "The Best Day" by Taylor Swift the whole while. Then I went down Merchant's Hope where I found a couple patches of wildflowers. They were little, but if I had a lot of them they were very pretty. I kept walking until I had found about six different types of flowers. White, yellow, purple, pink, you name it. I gathered them all up and walked back home. When I got home, I put the flowers in a vase and set the vase on my mom's nightstand. She thanked me and I gave her a hug and told her that I loved her and she told me the same. I went to bed yesterday with a smile on my face and I woke up happy. Definitely a good day!

~Rachel

New Chapters!!!

Ok, for any of you who have been waiting for new chapters on my story blog, here they are!! I've just posted two new ones, under the titles, "20 Questions" and "Peace After a Storm"...the site address, in case you didn't already know, is alitragedy.blogspot.com. Feel free to stop by any time you're bored and looking for something to read...or if you actually want to check out some of my work...whatever floats your boat, I guess. Anyway, the chapters of from Milly's and Niki's Point of View, so if you like those characters, these are chapters for you. If you want to know anything else about them, you'll have to go read them yourself, silly! Yeah, I have to get in bed, so I'll blog more later!

BYL!

~Rachel

PS-There's a new twist!!

Lonely Night

I am feeling very lonely at the moment. I'm kinda having a bad week right now, and I'm convinced that a good tight hug from a close friend would turn it around, but alas, there is no one to even talk to right now. Oh well. I guess I don't have to talk to people right now. But I warn you now, the next good friend to cross my path is getting a hug...no questions.

I know what I can do to put an end to my loneliness. I shall make a list of things going on in my life...(Feel free to skip the rest of this post...haha)

School:

We have SOLs this week and interims come out Friday...joy

Crystal has been out sick, but she's coming back tomorrow and we're going to talk then

It's teacher appreciation week, so let your teachers know you love 'em!!

Church:

ugh...not happening often enough...really, I would be perfectly happy if we had church every night...I would come!

Last Sunday, I got to see a bunch of pics from Teen Game Night, which I wasn't allowed to go to...darn public school...and that was fun.

Friends:

Sara is busy with schoolwork, so she's not posting anything recently

Crystal has been sick, but she's recovering

I'm talking to Alison a lot more, which I haven't been doing before now...(I think I might be starting to bug her with my texting, though)

Matt and I talked about the subject of my previous post at dance class on Friday and we were both very happy

Dancing:

I think I've redeemed myself from last week's tripping episode at dance class, because I danced quite well this time...still a few mistakes, but I'm getting it

We learned a new step for the Cha-Cha, which I'm finding difficult to master...I can never seem to spin when I'm supposed to...darn feet

We are continuing to have weekly dance sessions just before classes on Sunday...haha...brilliant, absolutely brilliant!

Family:

My mom and I are doing better...we have our good days and our bad.

We've had a major change in our house that I'm not really comfortable discussing here

I used to wish that my dad would keep his promises...I had no idea it would feel this strange when he actually did

I guess that's it. It didn't really help with my loneliness, but I guess I'll just have to figure something out. Oh well.

BYL...

~Rachel