VBS Lessons

Who says the kids are the only ones that learn during VBS. The guides learn quite a few things as well. For example, Olivia learned that a paperball to the side of the head can hurt long after the incident. Sara learned that "train tag" can sometimes trigger chain-reaction tripping. Sam learned, after being nicknamed "The Cute One" and "My new boyfriend" by some of the girls, that he is very popular with the younger crowd. I learned that when you give a sugar-pumped 2nd grader a foam noodle and tell them to "tag" the other kids, people are going to get beamed in the head. Yes, there certainly are some interesting lessons to be learned at Vacation Bible School. But more important than these lessons, though they are funny to hear about, are the lessons we learn that opens our eyes to yet another layer of God's nature. On this subject, I learned about Joy. No, I'm not talking about the song. I'm talking about Joy like what you see on the kid's faces when they sing Jesus Loves Me rock and roll at the top of their lungs because they can. It's the laughing you hear during game time in between the paper fights and noodle duels. And it's even on Pastor Wayne's face when he shows how many cars we got for our food back train tonight. I believe that that's the kind of Joy he gives each and every one of us, all the time. Yet somehow, we all live our lives as though we don't have any reason to be happy half the time. I think it's high time that we injected a little more Joy into our lives and started looking at things the way God intended, instead of through the thick cloud of negativity and doubt that this world so happily provides. I'm not immune from this myself. I'm going to make a change to start taking the Joy that I've been given and actually using it. Starting now. :)

BYL!

~Rachel

The True Lover of my Heart

I have had a revalation. I have (finally) discovered that if you give everything to God, he really will bless you and give you everything you need. It's been preached to me more than half my life, but I never really felt it until now. God truly is as amazing as he claims he is. He is the way, the truth, the light, and nothing less. I choose to put my all into following him, no matter what the cost because I know that he will provide me with everything I need along the way. I will do nothing unless the Lord asks it of me and if ever I feel him calling me to something, I will go without a second thought. I trust him with my life. I know that my life is not my own, but was bought with a price, and I will humbly serve the Lord my God with everything I am and everything that I do. I pray that he would shape me into the person I need to be for him.

Change

I don't know what's going on with me. It's like I'm a different person all of the sudden. I used to be able to talk to people about my life and how I was feeling and now it just seems like I don't have the words. Talking to the people closest to me doesn't fix things like it used to. It's like everything that used to be is now far away from me. It might be a good thing, but I'm really not sure right now. But I've always been afraid of change and that's one thing that's still the same. It's just hard to tell if the world is changing or if it's me. I haven't stopped praying about it, but I seem to just change more. I need answers and I'm right now I've got nothing to go on. I don't know what to do anymore.

What have I done?

I don't like feeling like burden. I try my best to be self sufficient and it seems like just my being there is a problem for people. I don't understand this at all. Now everyone is either mad at me or completely ignoring me and I'm once again alone. I need help. God, please help me to understand what to do and how to act. If this is where you want me, I can only ask for strenth to make it through. I'll follow where you lead me. Amen.

~Rachel

Peace

I think I'm finally at peace with all the things that have happened and are happening in my life. No, things don't always go the way I plan, but I know that they all work for God's plan and that's good enough for me. "We know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, those who he has called according to his purpose"~Romans 8:28 It all makes sense to me now. Mostly with the important stuff in life. One of things I thought was the cause of a lot of negative stuff in my life, turned out to be the thing that brought me to the biggest positive things. It's just like I've finally come to accept all of it and it's an amazing feeling. Praise God, because I know none of this would be this way without him.

Summer Plan

Summer is almost here, and I haven't really been planning much. I know that I'm going to read through the entire new testiment, which is great, cause then I'll have at least a chunk of the bible completely read! But now I have a new plan. I am going to take one month each of Summer to study three parts of my walk with God. Prayer, Bible Reading(see above), and Quiet Time. I haven't been spending as much time with God as I should have been this past year, and I plan to change all that this summer. I'll spend one month really focusing on one aspect and then at the next month, I'll switch to another. By the end of this summer, and with God's help, I'll be closer to him and living a better life because of it. I don't know what the final results of this summer will be, but I know it can't hurt. I'll just start where I am, and I'll follow God through the summer. Can't wait!

BYL!

~Rachel

Ups and Downs...

I have had on overly tiring week. I've gone from singing at the peak of a mountain to crying at the bottom of a pit. I'm really having to learn to put my everything in God. I can't do this all by myself, and as much as I don't like feeling hopeless, the depression is so much worse. I'd much rather stand on top of the world with him at my side than to try and do it alone.

Churches and Wildflowers...

Hello again! As you very well know, (or should very well know) Mother's Day was yesterday. First, I went to PGCC, since that's where I always go for Sunday school and I wasn't going to be able to stay for service. Then my family came and picked me up and we all went to Gregory Memorial. What a joy. Not! I mean, yes, overall, they are not a bad church. And maybe old people who can't stand any noise at all think it's just the loveliest church they've ever been to. However, I think I'll stick with the funny pastor, the giggling youth group, the chattering toddlers, and the singing congregation that I have come to know and love. In fact, if I have any choice at all in the matter, I am never leaving that church. I want to stay there for the rest of my life and raise my children in that church. But that's kind of skipping off the subject.

Anyway, after that, my family(along with my Grandma) went to Tripps. This is a really nice restaurant that served fresh bread with some kind of olive oil dip and poppy seed muffins with honey butter...haha...and that was just the appetizer. I won't go into detail on the whole meal, though. When we finished our meal, we drove home. I'm guessing we took my Grandma back to her house and then went home, but I wouldn't know, because I was in a semi-coma in the back seat until we got back home. Then I went in my room and fell asleep some more. Haha. When I woke up, it was cool outside and just right for going for a long walk. So I walked through my neighborhood, singing "The Best Day" by Taylor Swift the whole while. Then I went down Merchant's Hope where I found a couple patches of wildflowers. They were little, but if I had a lot of them they were very pretty. I kept walking until I had found about six different types of flowers. White, yellow, purple, pink, you name it. I gathered them all up and walked back home. When I got home, I put the flowers in a vase and set the vase on my mom's nightstand. She thanked me and I gave her a hug and told her that I loved her and she told me the same. I went to bed yesterday with a smile on my face and I woke up happy. Definitely a good day!

~Rachel

New Chapters!!!

Ok, for any of you who have been waiting for new chapters on my story blog, here they are!! I've just posted two new ones, under the titles, "20 Questions" and "Peace After a Storm"...the site address, in case you didn't already know, is alitragedy.blogspot.com. Feel free to stop by any time you're bored and looking for something to read...or if you actually want to check out some of my work...whatever floats your boat, I guess. Anyway, the chapters of from Milly's and Niki's Point of View, so if you like those characters, these are chapters for you. If you want to know anything else about them, you'll have to go read them yourself, silly! Yeah, I have to get in bed, so I'll blog more later!

BYL!

~Rachel

PS-There's a new twist!!

Lonely Night

I am feeling very lonely at the moment. I'm kinda having a bad week right now, and I'm convinced that a good tight hug from a close friend would turn it around, but alas, there is no one to even talk to right now. Oh well. I guess I don't have to talk to people right now. But I warn you now, the next good friend to cross my path is getting a hug...no questions.

I know what I can do to put an end to my loneliness. I shall make a list of things going on in my life...(Feel free to skip the rest of this post...haha)

School:

We have SOLs this week and interims come out Friday...joy

Crystal has been out sick, but she's coming back tomorrow and we're going to talk then

It's teacher appreciation week, so let your teachers know you love 'em!!

Church:

ugh...not happening often enough...really, I would be perfectly happy if we had church every night...I would come!

Last Sunday, I got to see a bunch of pics from Teen Game Night, which I wasn't allowed to go to...darn public school...and that was fun.

Friends:

Sara is busy with schoolwork, so she's not posting anything recently

Crystal has been sick, but she's recovering

I'm talking to Alison a lot more, which I haven't been doing before now...(I think I might be starting to bug her with my texting, though)

Matt and I talked about the subject of my previous post at dance class on Friday and we were both very happy

Dancing:

I think I've redeemed myself from last week's tripping episode at dance class, because I danced quite well this time...still a few mistakes, but I'm getting it

We learned a new step for the Cha-Cha, which I'm finding difficult to master...I can never seem to spin when I'm supposed to...darn feet

We are continuing to have weekly dance sessions just before classes on Sunday...haha...brilliant, absolutely brilliant!

Family:

My mom and I are doing better...we have our good days and our bad.

We've had a major change in our house that I'm not really comfortable discussing here

I used to wish that my dad would keep his promises...I had no idea it would feel this strange when he actually did

I guess that's it. It didn't really help with my loneliness, but I guess I'll just have to figure something out. Oh well.

BYL...

~Rachel

Amazing Words...

Okay, I have a lot to say, so I'm just going to start from the beginning. Here goes...

On my way home from school today, I was doing a lot of thinking. I've been reading this book called The Wild Girls by Pat Murphy, and it's a really great book with some really great ideas. One of those ideas is to look at the subtext of things. The text is what is happening in a situation. The subtext is what is really happening in a situation. Another idea in the book is to ask questions. It's the only way to figure out what's true and what's not. This is what got me thinking. So as I was thinking, I remembered something that Alison said to me when I was talking to her and her mom Tuesday. I remembered that she said that a lot of times, people have what she calls demon attacks, where the devil gets ahold of them and they're just not themselves. And I thought maybe if I could just sit down and talk to my mom, I could figure out what she was really like. Then maybe I would have something to remember when she has one of her "demon attacks." Maybe it wouldn't work, but I knew I wanted to try.

I walked into the living room while my brother went off to watch television in the other room. At first, I was terrified, but I knew that if I didn't do it now, I would just go another night wondering if things could ever get better. So I asked her if we could just talk and she said sure. I sat down in the chair next to her, but the lamp was between us, so we couldn't see each other's face. That might not've been what I was supposed to do, but I was too chicken to look at her and say what I had to say.

We talked about a lot of stuff. We talked about the reason her and my dad argue. We talked about why we don't get along. We talked about my writing and how we both were feeling. I had to keep reminding myself, "Say what you really mean. That's the only way she'll know how you feel." I figured out that this whole time, we've both wanted the same thing. We both just hated the fact that we weren't close and we wanted to get closer. We promised each other that we're going to start talking more. I told her to let me know if I'm doing anything to hurt her and she told me the same thing. It really was amazing.

So, long story short, the questions got their answers and the subtext became the text. And It definitely worked for the better. Praise God for answered prayers, and for giving me the strength to fix things. I'm giving him the glory for all of it.

~Rachel

Home is where the heart is...

...so what if that's not always your actual house? I guess it's not a bad thing, as long as you have a place you call home, right? I think that's right. I mean, not everyone likes being at home. I just happen to be one of those weirdos that would rather be at church on a Saturday night than sitting at home relaxing...yeah...I guess I'll just always be weird like that. The point of this post I guess is to just say that a house is not always a home...because home is where your heart is...

Idk...I've been thinkin' again

~Rachel

I'm Coming Back

One of very few songs I've written...enjoy!


Sometimes I fell like nothing I do is enough
And the only way to survive is to be tough
My parents and my teachesr and my friends don't understand
I need someone that cares enough to help me stand

So I'm comin' back
To you
Cause I know that you're the one that's gonna help me make it through
I'll carry on
Cause I know that you're the one that gonna let me move on
And forget about my past
Your love is gonna last
So I'm comin' back

You've seen my on the darkest days
And you've heard me when I didn't know what to say
You know I've been so close to givin' up
And the thing that's kept me going is your neverending love

So I'm comin' back
To you
Cause I know that you're the one that's gonna help me make it through
I'll carry on
Cause I know that you're the one that's gonna let me move on
And forget about my past
Your love is gonna last
So I'm comin' back

I'm gonna forget about my past
I'm not gonna look back
I'm gonna make my life mean somethin' before I see it all fly past

And I'm comin' back
To you
Cause I know that you're the one that's gonna help me make it through
And I'll carry on
Cause I know that you're the one that's gonna let me move on
And I'll forget about my past
Because your love is gonna last forever
I'm comin'
Back

I'm comin' back
I'm comin' back

There you have it...comment and tell me what you think!

BYL!

~Rachel

Long Week...

Ok, this has been a really long week for me. I've been on top of the world one day and knocked flat on my butt the next. There's so much stuff going on in my life that it's not even funny. I'm just gonna steal one of Keith Urban's quotes and describe what's going on in my life as, "Love, Pain, & The Whole Crazy Thing". It really is. I'm being pulled in a bunch of different directions and all I want is something familiar to hold onto, but right now, every direction I'm being pulled is something new and (to be fairly honest) scary. It's like being thrown into the middle of the ocean, someone telling you there may or may not be sharks in the water, and asking you to swim to shore, which is either in that direction (points right), that direction, (points left), or that direction, (points forward)...Good luck!! Yeah, not fun...

Oh well, I have to go now...maybe I'll explain some more later.

ttyl
~Rachel

Ok, this isn't really newsworthy, but...

I'm going to church tonight!!! I know I do this every week, but this week I'm extra excited because I get to talk to Ms. Brown and figure out all the details for the girl's night we're having at the church. I can't wait to get this thing planned. It's going to be so much fun!! This is something I've wanted to do for a long time, and now the right time is finally here. I can't believe how much I'm looking forward to this! Anyway, I'm really excited and I just had to share it with someone. So I shared it with YOU! Don't you feel special???

BYL!!!

~Rachel
"Think about, like a pegasus,unicorn combo. Oh man. Think about that. Think about that............A pegacorn!!"

SCRIPT FRENZY!!!!

Okay, April is approaching and we all know what that means!! No...not April showers...Script Frenzy!!

The Challenge: 100 page screenplay
The Time Limit: 30 Days
The Question: Are you in??

I'm in!! I've never done a screenplay before, but I know I can do it. And it's gonna be even awesomer when all my friends do it with me. I've already got a plot going. But I have to go for now...map it out and all that.

BYL!

~Rachel
"I shall henceforth be known as Aurelia!!"

Finally!!!!!

Ok, for any of you who read my story or follow my story blog, I finally have a new post up. And it didn't take me any time at all to write. If you're reading, read on. There's only a few more chapters left before I finish the whole novel!!! Thanks to my wonderful readers and my great inspiration. (Megs, this would be you!) Anyway, I have to get ready for school, so I'll leave you with that.

BYL!

~Rachel

PS-I met the deadline!!! Megan didn't kill me!!!!!!

I LOST IT!!!

Yes...yes, I did. Guess what I lost! My writer's block!!! It's completely gone! I know now exactly what I'm going to write all the way up the end of the book. No, I can't tell you, silly, 'else it wouldn't be a surprise now would it?? The answer is no, it would not be a surprise anymore. That's why you got to go to my other site and look for yourself. Hehe...it'll be there soon.

Besides that, I want to apologize for my earlier post. It scared some people and I was just really depressed when I posted that. I didn't know what else I could say, but I wanted to post something, so I just posted that. But I'm all better now. God does some pretty incredible things in his spare time...this spare time being at about 1-2:00 in the morning while I'm trying my hardest to stop crying because I don't know what to do. I learned I'd much rather have him dry my tears then not cry in the first place. Sometimes you just gotta let it all out.

Waiting for Friday!! I can't wait for Dance class, seeing as that is the only time I get to dance with anyone, seeing as everyone in my family refused to dance the waltz with me...my school friends are not really much better. Something about it being "embarrasing"...oh well, their loss. I love my dance class.

School news is the next item on the agenda, I guess. Well, I got to feel all smartical today, cause I went over to Sara's house and I got to edit her English paper...(she's a college student)...yes, major confidence boost for me...plus, I got to go over and scare Mary so that she squealed! When is that not fun? Yeah...never.

The last thing I guess I can talk about is church. I've invited a couple of people to church in the last week...some aquaintances, some good friends (everyone could use a little Jesus) and I'm still waiting for a response from the majority of them.

And that's about it. I have to get back to my novel, lest Megan decide to kill me in her impatience...oh great, now I've given her an idea...and she scares me...She's clever...she could murder me and not leave a single piece of evidence...but the joke would be on her, cause if she killed me because I wouldn't write, I would never be able to write again and then the novel would never be finished and she would be sad...so HA, Megan...haha...jk

BYL!

~Rachel

Just...

She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong
But she still sleeps with the light on
And she acts like it's all right on, as she smiles again
And her mother lies there sick with cancer
And her friends don't understand her
She's a question without answers
Who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she's so much more than worthless
She needs to find a purpose,
She wonders what she did to deserve this

She's calling out to you
This is a call, this is a call out
Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you
And I'm losing all control now
And my hazard signs are all out
I'm asking you to show me what this life is all about

Have you ever felt this way before
Cause I don't wanna hide here anymore
Take me to a place where nothing's wrong
And thanks for coming, shut the door
And they say some one out there sees us,
Well if you're real, then save me Jesus
Cause I've been this way for far too long
I wasn't meant to feel alone

She's calling out to you
This is a call, this is a callout
'Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you
And I'm losin all control now
And my hazard signs are all out
And I'm askin you to show me what this life is all about

Show me what this life is all about
Show me what this life is all about

~This is a Call: Thousand Foot Krutch


There's really not much to say, is there?

My vewwy own KWIZ!!

Let it snow, Let it snow, Let it snow!!! Uh…no. I don’t think so. After the past three snow days, I was just about ready to go to school today…that is, until 6:00 this morning when I was mumbling something along the lines of, “Are you sure we don’t have a two hour delay??” So, yes. I’m weird like that. I’ve decided that I’m not even going to try not to be weird in my blog posts anymore. So be afraid…be very afraid. Nah, I’m not that bad.

In other news, I am having an awesome time at dance class, as always. We may or may not be learning the tango next class, I’m not sure, but I hope we do. Either way, I’m continuously learning new steps from Matt anyhow, because he’s in the recital.

In other, other news, I’m bored…haha…bet you couldn’t guess that, huh?? Sooooo, to cure my boredom, I have decided to make and fill in my own quiz!!…Mwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!! And so, without further adieu, my KWIZ!!!

What is a quote you think describes you? “I’m on a journey to discover who I am; I have yet to make a wrong turn” ~Rachel Coleman

What song lyrics describe you at your best? “Got the radio on/ My old blue jeans/And I’m wearin’ my heart on my sleeve/feelin’ lucky today/ got the sunshine/baby, tell me what more do I need/ and tomorrow’s just a mystery, oh yeah/ but that’s ok” Taylor Swift: Place in This World

At your worst? “Hold on, baby you’re losin’ it/The water’s high, you’re jumpin’ into it and/Letting go/And no one knows/That you cry, but you don’t tell anyone/That you might not be the golden one/And you’re tied together with a smile, but you’re comin’ undone” Taylor Swift: Tied Together With a Smile

What phrase do people say to you a lot? Sometimes I worry about you. (yes, this is very true…I’m not afraid to admit it)

Which family member are you closest to? Brother

Favorite type of music? Country

If you had a choice to look into the future, would you do it? No. If I saw something I didn’t like, I might do something to make it not happen and then I may look back one day and say, “Oh, I wish that had happ-…oh yeah…it was going to…” That would be horrible.

What’s your favorite color? Purple…but blue comes in a very close second

Do you have a secret? Doesn’t everybody??

What is your pet peeve? When you put someone down and then try to convince them that they aren’t worth anything to anyone else either.

Who is are your closest friends? Sara & Megan

What is your favorite thing to do? Hang out with my church friends and all mah homeschool homies!!(I’m not a homeschooler, but I have a LOT of friends who are.

Describe yourself in one word. Dreamer

What makes you feel small? When I’m trying my best and someone tells me it’s not good enough

What was your favorite childhood memory? I don’t have a lot that I remember, but I do distinctly remember my family’s weekly trip to Scott park. The one that sticks in my memory would have to be the time my mom taught me how to go all the way across the monkey bars. I was so happy. I then fell, hurt my knee, and my mommy kissed it and made it better! (I was five, I kiss was all I needed)

Do you keep a journal? My stories are my journal. If you read them, it’s not hard to tell what was happening when I wrote them

What’s your favorite after school snack? Pears, grapes, or celery with ranch dressing…this is what you get when you’re raised in a house where everything but produce has the word “Lite” on it.

What is something you’ve always wanted to try, but never did? Well for years, I had never eaten whipped cream strait from the can…I finally got around to that. Now I’m addicted…hehe…but, yeah, I don’t know…

Who was your first crush? Ah, the good old days of birthday cake and puppy love. I was four and there was a boy named David that I had basically known since I was born. (Our moms knew each other before that) We “dated” for a couple years and then we went our separate ways. I’ll keep the memories, though.

What are five things you couldn’t live without? God, Friends, Music, Stories, and Dancing…in that order

And that’s all for my KWIZ! Feel free to copy and paste it onto your own blog and fill in your own answers. See ya!

BYL!! (Blog Ya Later!!)


~Rachel

Writer's Block

Okay, I've had writer's block on my blogging...it's not that I haven't had anything going on in my life, it's just that I don't know how to put it all into word form. So I'll just do the best I can.

~Taylor Swift now as a video for White Horse...it's amazing!!!!
~I didn't have school today on account of president's day, so that's good
~I am currently unable to read any more of the Twilight book, because I left it at church...again...hmm...
~I've written a couple new poems...they're all romantic and girly
~And, lastly, I have to go to bed in less than a minute(it's 9:29), so I guess that's it for blogging tonight

BYL!!

~Rachel

TWILIGHT MANIA!!!!

Okay, before I start talking about twilight, I might should say that the reason I haven't posted is cuz I been on groundation...it's no fun...but annnnnnyyyywayyyy....I LOVE TWILIGHT!!!!! THE BOOKS ARE SO AWESOME AND I AM ADDICTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*coughs* I mean, uh...they...well..umm...yeah...so there's my take on the Twilight books...read 'em, love 'em, re-read 'em...hehe...anyway, I'm off to school.

~Rachel (is addicted to the Twilight books!!)

If it matters, let me know...

My dad said something the other night that really bothered me, so I'm trying to get to the bottom of it. If my writing has made a difference to anyone, please leave a comment on this post. I don't wanna do something if I'm just wasting my time.

i love SeEing chik-fil-a Cows moRe whEn they're noT mean!!!

can you figure out by the title what the point of this post is??? look careFully...the trick is to read all the capital letters...thEy'll spell out A woRd......aLl you have to do is find it...i have to admit, i stolE this idea from taylor swift...She does this with all of her song lyrics...anyway, this post is short because the hidden phraSe is only one word...

can you figure it out???

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

hint: it's my favorite taylor swift song right now

good luck!!!

~rachel

Pictures!!!!!!!

Ok, I have a new facsination...I am now addicted to putting lyrics on pictures and making them look all pretty-ful!!!! I already knew I could do this, but now I have some really good lyrics to use!!!! Here is some of of my work!!

And there you have it!!!! Innit perdy????? I lurve it!!!! Anyway, I'm bored again, so I guess I have to start on my homework now...oh well...but I do have a nice little surprise next post...what is it???...you're have to wait and see!!!!

Love Quotes...

Ok, I'm bored...but I know for a fact that love quotes are addicting to any girl who reads them...and so, for your enjoyment, I give you several love quotes I found online...enjoy!

Love is when you look into someones eyes, and see everything you need

What is love but that which poisons the body, clouds the mind, yet envigorates the soul

Love is born with the pleasure of looking at each other, it is fed with the necessity of seeking each other, it is concluded with the impossibility of seperation.

Love is as much and object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few will ever acheive it, those who do, will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, will never...never forget it

Forgiveness is the final form of love

Love involves a peculiar unfathomable combination of understanding and misunderstanding

Love is the only thing you get more of by giving it away.

distance between hearts is not an obstacle...rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be.

The world moves for Love; it kneels before it in awe.

One man by himself is nothing. Two people who belong together make a world.

Reason and Love are sworn enemies

You don't marry someone you can live with, you marry the person you cannot live without.

Absence it to love what wind is to fire, it extinguishes the small, enkindles the great

Love is when hurting them will hurt you more.

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthen it.

To the world, you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world

Stephon kissed me in the spring, Robin in the fall, but Colin only looked at me, and never kissed at all. Stephon's kiss was lost in jest, Robin's lost in play, But the kiss in Colin's eyes, haunts me night and day.

Love is an emothion without limit or understanding

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind.

Love said, "Lie still and think of me". Sleep said, "clost your eyes till the break of day". But Dreams came by, and smilingly gave both to Love and Sleep their way.

To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose, the next best.

Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.

Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another's personhood.

If we seek the preasure of love, passion should always be occasional, and common sense continual

A memory of true love is like a favorite song; no matter how many times it plays agian, you never get tired of it.

You can give all the gifts in the world to the one you have chosen, but the everlasting one will always remain the deed of a kind word

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, and hour to like someone, and a day to love some one...but it takes a lifetime to forget someone

Love and eggs are best when they are fresh

No disguise can long conceal love where it exists, or long fein it where it lacks

The course of true love never did run smooth

Love is the most beautiful of dreams, and the worst of nightmares

No matter how hard things seem, True love will aide you through it.

Love can never grow old, Locks may lose their brown and gold, Cheeks may fade and hollow grow, but the hearts that love will know never winters frost and chill, Summer’s warmth is in them still.

Real Love stories, never have endings

Love looks through a telescope, envy through a microscope

Man’s love is of man’s life, a part; it is woman’s whole existence

Today, I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists…When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.

Love is the capability to evoke your loved one’s love

Love is the light that shines from heart to heart

The wounds of love can only be healed by the one who made them.

“I wasn’t kissing her, I was whispering in her mouth”

Love does not care for time or order

Her lips on his could tell him better that all her stumbling words

There is the same difference in a person before and after he is in love as there is in an unlighted lamp and one that is burning

When you depart from me sorrow abides, and happiness takes his leave

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing

Hell’s afloat in lover’s tears

Woman was created from the rib of man: Not from his head to be though of only, nor from his hand to be owned, nor from his foot to be beneath, but from under his arm to be protected, from his side to be equal, and from his heart to be loved

So dear I love him, All deaths I could endure, Without him, live no lives

Love is a thing, well, it’s kind of like quicksand: the more you are in it, the deeper you sink. And when it hits you, you’ve just got to fall

Love is like a beautiful flower that I may not touch, but whose fragrance makes the garden a place of delight just the same

Love isn’t blind. Love sees, sees everything, but loves anyway

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none

Love enables you to put your deepest feelings and fears into your partners hand, knowing they will be handled with care

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along

A kiss is something you cannot give without taking, and cannot take without giving

There is no remedy for love, but to love more

Love dies only when growth stops

It is better to break one’s heart than to do nothing with it

Love is the emblem of eternity: it confounds all notion of time: effaces all memory of a beginning, all fear of an end

Love gives us in a moment what we can hardly attain by effort after years of toil

To love another person is to see the face of God

Love does not die easily. It is a living thing. It thrives in the face of all life’s hazards, save one…neglect

True love is when your heart and your mind are saying the same thing

My heart smiled when you kissed my lips…What a sweet surprise.

Love does not dominate…it cultivates

Love is good in feeling, even if you are always being hurt. It is better to be hurt by love that not loving at all

Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in it’s defense

Love’s very pain is sweet

A man loses his sense of direction after four drinks; a woman loses hers after four…kisses

I have spread my dream beneath your feet; Tread softly…

I love being married. It’s so great to find one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life

I have never met a person whose greatest need was anything other than real, unconditional love. You can find it in a simple act of kindness toward someone who needs help. There is no mistaking love. You feel it in your heart. It is the common fiber of life, the flame that heals our soul, energizes out spirit and supplies passion to our lives. It is our connection to God and to each other.

Love is not blind…it simply enables one to see things other’s fail to see

If a love is to evolve, it must go through a series of endings

All the ill in us is from fear, and all the good from love

Love reminds you that nothing else matters

The mystery of love is greater than the mystery of death

Love is just an abbreviation for everything we have ever wanted to say about that one person who truly means something to us, all wrapped up in a tiny four letter box

True love should be lived like an imperfect circle that has its bumps, but never ends

A house is made with walls and beams; a home is built with love and dreams

The greatest happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved…Loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves

When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace

Men always want to be a woman’s first love. Women like to be a man’s last romance

Why is it that we don’t always recognize the moment love begins, but we always recognize the moment it ends?

Love: a term which has no meaning if defined

There is no difference between a wise man and a fool when the fall in love

It’s not that I can’t live without you…it’s just that I don’t even want to try

Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman, but luckier is that woman who is the last love of a man

Age does not protect us from love, but love, to some extent, protects us from age

And there you have it...several random love quotes I found in random places on the internet...you're welcome.

~Rachel

Confusion...UGH

Ok, let me fill you in on what his been happening this past week...I have been restricted from the internet, so I haven't been able to blog lately, but I am now and, boy, do I have a lot to say.

From the title, you can probably tell that I am very confused...that's obvious...what you may not know is that I am confused because of a boy...two boys...Matt and Matt...no, the names are not what is confusing me. The first Matt, I shall refer to as Matthew, the second, as Matt, to eliminate as much confusion as possible...careful now, this trip can get a little bit like a maze.


Anywho, it all started out when I went to dance class one night...I danced with Matthew all night and by the end of the night, I was definitely crushing on him. The next time I saw him, I was falling for him even more then the first night, if such a thing was possible, so, I offered to let him read my story, just as casual conversation. He said he would love to and I wrote down the website for him on a piece of paper...along with my number. When I saw him next, he didn't seem that awkward around me. When I brought up the note in the conversation, he assured me he would call and tell me what he thought about the story. He smiled when he said it. So, me being the foolish little fourteen year old girl that I am, believed him. I have gone to two dance classes since then, and at neither of them was he present. And, what a surprise, no phone call. Now here is where Matt comes into the picture. Sara tried to set my up with Matt when we first went there...not really a blind date sort of thing, she just told me over and over again how much I would love him, seeing as he was a gentleman in all ways, he's funny, and handsome. So I went along with it. He seemed alright as a friend, but that was all...or so I thought. This past dance class, I was worrying myself silly about Matt not being there, and so I was hiding from the rest of the people, no longer in the mood to dance as I had been just hours before. I only danced with one person willingly, and that was Matt. I don't know why, but for some reason, I trusted him above all the young men in the room. When we danced, we could actually talk and we got into some very interesting conversations about love and men and women...and we laughed. As soon as that happened of course, a quote came to mind that I wanted so desperately to push away, but it came into my head anyway. "Love is the boy that can make you laugh when you don't even want to smile." My mind was racing. I couldn't be in love with Matt, could I? I was in love with Matthew, wasn't I? Every single piece of evidence I could find against my feelings was accompanied by a question. It would be so much easier to sort through this if I were to see them more often, but I only speak to them every other Friday. Anyway, I'm rambling...there's also something else going on with boys, but it's a little too personal to talk about here...anyway, I guess I'll blog something later when I've sorted through all of this.

BYL!!
~Rachel

Random Quiz at 7am

Where is your mobile phone? nonexistent
Where is your significant other? Dancing!!!
Your hair color? brown
Your mother? kitchen
Your father? work
Your favorite thing? Pretzelman!!!! (Thanks to Luis for the nickname)
Your dream last night? Scary
Your dream goal? Published
The room you're in? mine
Your hobby? Singing/writing
Your fear? Seperation
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Change
Where were you last night? Home
What im not? bored
One of your wish-list items? PretzelMan!!!!
Where you grew up? Here
The last thing you did? Slept (it’s 6:58 in the morning)
What are you wearing? Pjs!!!!!
Your TV? lost
Your pets? hiding
Your computer? bright
Your mood? UGH!!!!!
Missing someone? PretzelMan!!!!
Your car? TRUCK!!!
Something you're not wearing? Potatoes
Favourite shop? Mall
Your summer? Past
Love someone? Maybe….
Your favorite color? Blurple!!!!
When is the last time you laughed? Sara
When is the last time you cried? Pre-Sara

Copy and paste this random quiz on your blog...It doesn't take long...now, I'm off to school!!
~Rachel

Seven Things...

Okay, seeing as I haven't posted anything in a while, I have a lot to say. Seven things to be exact. *^^see the title^^*



1. The first thing on my mind is something I was thinking of yesterday, and It's something I need to say. Jeff, if you're reading this, (Sara, make sure he's reading this) I'm sorry. I said some things about you in some of my earlier posts that I'm not proud of. I thought it would make me feel strong to stand up against you, but I realize now that what I said was very un-christian and I didn't even try to see things from your point of view...so, I'm sorry.



2. The second thing I'm thinking about is love. Define it, enjoy it, live it, or give it, it's amazing no matter what. Seeing as nothing has actually happened between us yet, I can't really say any more.



3. Third thing: Writing...I haven't been doing a lot of it. It's not that I have writer's block, and it's not because people around me aren't supportive, it's because my life is good. I heard a quote once that said, "when you're in love, you can't sleep because reality is better than your dreams". This is why I haven't done any writing in a while. Right now, my life is better than anything I could make up in a story.



4. I'm getting baptized Sunday. It's going to be amazing and wonderful. I know it's something that I fully want to do, and I believe I'm ready to really commit to Christ. I can't wait!!



5. Dance class is tonight, and I'm going to invite Matt to my baptism. I'm also going to invite him to join me and some of my friends to go to a movie afterwards...we'll see how that goes.



6. My mom's health is slowly increasing, so praise God for that

7. I'm hoping I can stay the night at Sara's house before the baptism...I'll find out tonight.

Those are my seven things...what's yours???

BYL!!! (Blog Ya Later)
~Rachel

Yeah, I'm a bookworm...sue me!

Okay, I've just discovered the most wonderful invention in all the earth...and it's called the audio book...you download it, put it on your Mp3 player, and someone reads it to you...you can even put it on and then just fall asleep...It' awesome!!! I have an excerpt from "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" and I've listened to it about 3 times so far...now I just need to find out where to get more of them...tell me if you know of a website where I can get them...thanks!